All that being said, I am LOVING this. So, so, sooooo much! Joy and excitement bubbles up in my tummy each time we are about to begin a show. I love being on stage. I love working hard. I love the kids. I love my fellow cast and crew. I love the Six Flags Entertainment staff. I love that THIS is my job. This is what I do.
But it's a lot. And it's my first time. There have been so many 'first times' lately, I'm trying to remain really mindful of them all, each time they occur, because it's only ever the first time once. I'm also trying to remain mindful of the very much 'first time nature' of this adventure in an effort to be gentle with myself; The most challenging thing for me is to be in the same boat as my cast/crew members (with whom I also travel and live with) in terms of never having done a show for this company, never having been to St Louis, never having, well, done any of this before, all the while having to act as their "leader" and show manager. But I'm managing. Add to my basket of Meghan-specific challenges at this time is the fact that my brother and I are dealing with the recent death of our aunt in Vancouver - a complicated task given that he is there and I am here, and there are many less-than-pleasant details that we must attend to. And again, *sigh*
But I am okay. Just like my horoscope said, my life these days is kind of like plowing through heavy, murky waters aboard a sometimes claustrophic, brightly lit, high-tech vessel where a non-stop party is being thrown by slightly chaotic connoisseurs of fun. For real.
Yup, that's pretty much my life right now.
And I wouldn't trade it for the world.
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