I know this much is true...

I know that it has (yet again) been a long time since I wrote a blog entry.
So what else is new?
Well, lots is new in my life, and lots is not. I am still on tour, and I am still loving my job and by extension my life (because my life pretty much is my job these days), and all of that is not really what I feel like writing about right now. Right now, I feel like writing about what I know to be true at this time.

So, I know this much is true:
I want love. I have been wanting (okay, despite my proclamations that I don’t believe in wishing, I’ve actually caught myself lately wishing for…) love that is real and true and good for me. And just now, sitting here outside of our current theatre venue (in Southern California) beneath what I think may be a full moon, I realized (or rather, I remembered): I have that. I have so much real, true, good-for-me love in my life. I know this is true. And I am oh, so thankful for every ounce of it.

Furthermore, I know what kind of person I want to be – and in that real, true, secure knowledge of that person, I am realizing that I am that person. That person is someone who, deep down, wants everyone’s dreams to come true. As much as I want for myself, I want for others. That much, I know, is true.

I am also the kind of person who wants to be the very best that she can be. I am the kind of person who carries with her a constant awareness of how I might be able to improve. For this too, I am thankful.

And I am the kind of person who has chosen to believe, to have faith, to be thankful and to be loving. In the face of challenge, adversity and difficulty – I believe that I have chosen to simply walk forward through the fire as best I can, and be as thankful as possible.

I watched an excellent movie recently (Zeitgeist – do check it out!) and it contained a quote that resonated deeply with me:

“They must find it difficult…
those who have taken authority as the truth,
rather than truth as the authority”

I know this much is true: I have chosen truth as my authority. And this sometimes makes me the type of person who questions authority, sometimes to the dismay of those in authoritative positions. And I like that about me, even when others don’t like that about me. It is also true that I like to be liked, and thus sometimes it is difficult for me to take positions where I upset others. This is an ongoing struggle for me – but I choose to strive towards taking truth as my authority, as opposed to authority as my truth.

I also know this much is true:

I will always be my own worst enemy,
and my own Best friend.

I also know, all too well perhaps, about the ebb and flow of life. I know that all things must end, and though I struggle with endings, I know for certain that endings are the only way to make new things start. I know well the excitement of beginnings, and I love them, but I have grown to love endings too.

I have also come to know that the more you give, the more you have to lose, but I have never regretted giving all that I had to give simply because I had to face it's eventual loss.

I know that everyone and everything in one’s life is there to teach or show or remind us of something, but it is entirely up to each individual to figure out what that something is.

Furthermore, I know that sometimes life gives us a person or a situation and it seems like they are there for a specific reason, and sometimes this is so. But sometimes they end up being given to us for a completely different reason that becomes apparent only through the 20/20 vision of hindsight. So it goes.

I know that what doesn’t kill us most definitely makes us stronger. I know this because I am still here - alive and living and strong. Perhaps what I truly know is that I have not yet been given anything that I cannot handle (even though sometimes I thought that was exactly what I was being given) and I do believe that I will never be given anything that I cannot handle. Or perhaps I simply believe that I can handle anything. I’m still working on the core truth of that one…

Finally (for now), I know that many (if not all) of the best moments (of my life at least) are small and simple, and can easily go un-noted… but these are precisely the moments worth noting.

I know and believe that so completely that I feel it bears repeating:

I know that many, if not all,
of the best moments in life
are small and simple,
and can easily go un-noted...
but these are precisely the moments worth noting.

And so I shall go forth and attempt as best I can to take perpetual note of the little things – those lovely little things that bring me large, large joy.