Now that I have decided to try and write something on this here blog every day, it's interesting to note how dramatically different I can feel from day to day...
Today for example. I feel fragile. Worn down. Exhausted. Weak. And I hate feeling this way.
My first instinct earlier today was to blame myself, and feel frustrated, angry and guilty. To scold myself with thoughts like: "Meghan, you cannot keep doing this to yourself! You need to listen to the people around you who keep warning you not to take on too much!" But then I suddennly flipped my frustration to be towards all of those "people" in my life who give me such warnings and advice, and thought to myself "Well, what they really mean, is they want me to take care of me, so that I can be better for them. And do more work for them!!!"
Well, after about half an hour of crying on a park bench post-rehearsal with Tracey, and two tearful phone calls with two of my best friends, and most importantly... some air and just a little bit of "me time", I have realised that blaming and scolding, either myself or others, is really not going to solve anything.
What I really need to do is just figure out what I need to do to really take care of myself (what I need to say no to, and when, and how) and then DO those things.
So here I go...
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Hang in there! You ALWAYS manage to get everything done (and, remember, we'll sleep when we're dead). That said, try to remember that sometimes finding yourself is not about what you add to your life, but what you take away...
XO from you wise and loyal friend BH! ;)
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