So I feel the need to share this with you: I have been feeling angry lately. I haven't been acting angry lately, I don't think. But I have definitely been feeling it. Not rageful, off-the-wall, crazy-frustrated angry. No, it's more like a dull, insiduous, peeved/irked sorta feeling. I just feel more easily irritated by some things. Like the fact that out of lazyness today I went to Dominion to do my grocery shopping instead of Kensington Market (an irksome enough fact, given that I am making a conscious effort as of late to shop locally and support smaller businesses - see? I'm even irritated by myself!) and when I went to buy my organic bananas, they were wrapped in plastic!!! Ridiculously excessive? Yes. Cause for a bad day? Probably not. But it got to me, ruined the rest of my grocery shopping experience, I think. And grocery shopping is actually one of my favorite activities!
Oh my. Something is clearly wrong (with me?)...
Maybe I'm not getting enough sleep. Alright, alright, I know I am definitely not getting enough sleep. But you know, it feels ironic for me to cite 'lack of sleep' as the cause for my crankiness, given my self-proffessed acceptance of my long-standing insomnia (I mean, I did write and perform my own play about facing those particular demons)... But I think the problem isn't so much lack of sleep (cause I really don't typically sleep many hours a night), but rather lack of time in my bed. As long as I'm confessing things here, I might as well tell you that for the last three nights (or rather "sleep times" given my recent semi-nocturnal work schedule), I have only spent 4-5 hours in my bed. That's really probably not enough rest for someone who is waitressing overnight, and spending her days teaching theatre workshops to high school students, doing research for the book she is writing, having meetings and photoshoots for the play she is producing, as well as meetings for the documentary video she is producing for the organisation that she is also helping to develop new food education workshops with. I'm not even going to tell you about the social life I am trying to maintain... now that patio season is fully upon us.
Oh my. Something is clearly wrong with me.
Alright, not to worry! It may be friday night, but I am determined to remedy myself! I have made a firm decision: tonight, I will not go out, and party like the fun-loving gal that I am. No, I shall go make myself a nice healthy dinner, and then promptly settle into bed while watching a movie. I've been wanting to see that "Freedom Writers" one for a while now.
Ah yes, it's settled. Tonight is about rest, and that feels better, and less irksome, already.
(If it weren't unbearably cheesy I would put a little emoticom smiley face here)
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MegMegMeg. Do you want to hear my oppinion? And I can just tell from the little bit we've been seeing each other.
You're a wonderful and positive person. And even if things turn out to be not soooo good, you still focus on the positive things. Which is perfect. But sometimes you stuff your negative emotions somewhere. Deep down. And then it bursts like some old ugly pimple.
If you're stressed, sad or angry. Live it out. I mean it. Convert it into energy. For sport. Smash something against the wall. Shout it out. Hit Brad. Maybe not.
xoxo from Munich.
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